G,
we're dandelions in the breeze.
I don't hate you.
I can't.
I won't ever be able to hate you.
how could I hate someone I love with all my senses and tears?
remember when I told you I would never leave unless you wanted me to?
I wasn't lying, but
as much as it kills me,
and as much as you don't want me to go,
you don't want me here either.
I tried.
I promise you,
I tried.
but your fear was stronger than me.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm fucking sorry.
I loved you as I never loved before.
I won't ever love someone like I love you.
I will always love you.
but love won't heal you.
love can't alleviate your agony.
I'm not enough.
I was neverenough.
but I want you happy.
I want you safe.
I want you to have peace and rest.
I want you.
but I can't have you.
you were never mine.
you can hate me.
hate me so you can leave me behind.
I understand.
so do what you have to do,
detest me,
blame me if it makes you feel better.
I love you.
You have no idea how much I do love you.
but sometimes love is letting go.
